Work thoughts and other bits

I would love to not work.  Himself speaks the words "if that's what you want to do then go for it" but then he makes comments about contacting the union about the circumstances of my leaving (don't want to go over it all again and can't see it making a difference) and telling me about jobs he's found on the net (just looking!!) and saying that I don't have to worry about January as my holiday pay will cover that and so on.

I'm sure he doesn't mean to pressure me but I really feel that he wants me to work.  If I could trim the household budget significantly (and that shouldn't be too hard!) I might feel better.

I had lunch with the Mermaid today and we were talking about this and I realised that I don't want to work in a hospital again.  I guess that's one good thing.  How easy it will be for me to find a job as a nurse out of the hospital system remains to be seen.  

I cleaned Three's bathroom today.  My hands still smell of bleach!

Tomorrow I was going to see the parents but Mum is having an ultrasound and they will want a nap when they get home and I don't want to sit in the waiting room with them cos she always complains about the length of time they have to wait.  If they stopped turning up 45 minutes before their appointments they might find the wait is less!  I am taking her to the surgeon on 3rd Feb which is different as they will be talking surgery and she hears what she wants to hear and Dad doesn't hear much at all!

I was going to catch up with ex-colleagues after seeing the parents but might take a rain check and go next week.  It's a long way to drive for a 15 minute cup of coffee.

WW weigh in on Friday.  I am so hoping that the damage of last week will not be too great.  But at least I'm back on track and enjoying it.

I am still struggling with the whole not working and needing to feel productive (hence cleaning upstairs yesterday and downstairs today) and as I'm not seeing the folks tomorrow I need to decide how to spend the day.  I'm thinking: change the fish tank water and clean out the pantry and fridge.  Then I can either go for a bike ride or walk in the afternoon if the weather's reasonable.  Or sit on the balcony and read a book.  Or do a jigsaw puzzle.  Or some sewing.  Mornings for housework stuff and afternoons for me.  Sounds like a plan.